Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Saturday, August 27, 2011
16) I love Lucky Charms.
17) Baking is my favorite.
18) These cupcakes are going to be most delicious.
19) Can't wait to see my sister.
20) I'm hungry.
21) I hate headaches, grrr.
23) I need new furniture.
24) I should roll my dreads again.
25) I tired.
26) Why is Jocelyn always taking off her diaper?
27) What next?
28) Le sigh.
29) I like my phone.
30) I should take a shower.
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Random thoughts from throughout my day.
1) I don't want to wake up yet.
2) English breakfast tea, yum.
3) I hate washing dishes.
4) I need more cereal.
5) I need to buy more waffles.
6) How long is Jocelyn going to sleep.
7) I think I might take the kids to the park.
8) Why is it so dang hot?
9) Please stop whining.
10) It stinks.
11) Josiah's so silly.
12) Where are my dang tums?
13) I need some red gatorade.
14) Dinner is going to be so good.
15) I want a yummy salad.
TO BE CONTINUED....
Friday, August 19, 2011
Being that I had been having the most terrible week of my life, I was crushed. I called Chris crying, told him I was really upset with Josiah that nothing in life was ever going to work. A bit dramatic I know but hey, I'm a very emotional woman, what can I say.
Turns out some things can be fixed. I pulled out all my hard work down to where Josiah had not messed up the stitching. Then I put it back on my needles and kept working at it. Somethings in life can be repaired it just take time and effort.
I'm also focusing back on my photography. I really haven't taken much pictures lately. So I'm very excited about traveling to Houston with a fellow photographer friend of mine (Ashtin Paige), she has a wedding to do and I get to tag along.
I've also decided to start trying to do self portraits more often. Being that since I'm usually behind the camera I usually am not in a whole lot of photos. So not to be completely self absorbed but I'll leave you with some of my self portraits.
Thursday, August 18, 2011
As a wife, you are protected by your husband. You let him protect you to show him respect. He typically will do what he can to guard you from hurt and pain. Sometimes he fails, for some, he always fails. Sometimes there are things you just have to figure out for yourself.
My question is, as a woman who is made to love, to receive love, who survives off of love, what's to much protection? And what do you do when the person "protecting" you lets you down over and over again. How is that trust rebuilt?
I think that trust and respect run (somewhat) hand in hand. I think you can respect someone to an extent, but if they repeatedly break your trust and lie over and over again, you won't or can't fully respect them. How long does it take to heal? Will it ever heal? Will you ever trust them again? Or will you have that nagging feeling in your heart forever?
I've dealt with a lot of hurt, as most people probably have. I've learned to just keep carrying through life, cause that's what you are supposed to do right? Just let the people you love most in the world hurt you over and over again. The point is to stand strong and get through it with head held high, right? To learn and grow from each experience? What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, right? Eventually the love and trust will return. One day.
Just have to focus on the good things and the rest will just blur into something you don't recognize.
Not giving up is the important thing.
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
I love you ♡
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
Monday, August 15, 2011
Saturday, August 13, 2011
That's what I want.
That's what I want to give.
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
- "All that is gold does not glitter,
- Not all those who wander are lost;
- The old that is strong does not wither,
- Deep roots are not reached by the frost.
- From the ashes a fire shall be woken,
- A light from the shadows shall spring;
- Renewed shall be blade that was broken,
- The crownless again shall be king."
- -J.R. Tolkien